lol

this summer has been incredibly defining for me so far. Similar to the summer I spent before my freshman year of college.
that summer I'd thought that I had been decided on the type of person i wanted to leave college being.
The options. bursting with energy to invest in getting to know new people and their thoughts and experiences.
this summer:
- completely different and yet possessing equal potential for greatness
- highschool emotions resurface and i finally deal with them the right way
- "being" serious
- i wrote my first real song (always been a bit of a late bloomer)
- words can't mean much of anything without actions or vise-versa...
- i really am not that old, experienced, or mature
- being upset when some one does not want any type of relationship with you is rooted in self-absorption(?)
- giving people the opportunities to be kind, generous, and thoughtful to you
- understanding is proportionate to fun
- immense patience and new-found (demanded) tenderness
- my resilience says nothing about my initial state of fragility

right now my only goals in life after i graduate are to find a job so that I won't have have move back in with the parents. Where and with who is yet to be decided- if these things could figure themselves out with as little say from me as possible would be perfect.

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dag. this is who i am right now.