Preface for post 5/17/2010

The point can be made that we are naturally social beings, and therefore have to share our experiences in order to feel empathy and connect and help and further the circle of life etc. I acknowledge that most people, like me, experience complex emotions at times, such as incongruity within themselves/to their surroundings, bouts of amorphousness, happiness/sadness for what seem to be all the wrong reasons etc.
Because of this I have (see) no reason to compare the details of my life to that of anyone else's. When I see or hear some one's experience I try as best I can to empathize with them. Even if I don't/can't understand exactly why it is they are feeling a certain way I know that I can and/or at least attempt to provide whatever amount of realistic support they will allow me to give.

in short--Majority of people have enough tedious details to keep track of just so that they can (under)"stand" themselves in order to relate to others/surroundings that I feel like when directly interacting with a person I can't waste time getting lost in my own little world, instead I should be putting energy, when with them, into searching for "mutual" ground in which to provide reciprocal support. Each interaction/experience is one that I can later refer back to when dealing with "new" people, surroundings, and personal struggles/realizations. It's when I listen that I learn the most.

When spending time alone leads to racing thoughts and involuntary emotions I remind myself that it is possible to endure it because eventually it will pass, even if it doesn't feel like it presently. (That word "feel" is such a cumbersome nuisance....like in the same sense that most people casually throw about the word "love".) I also have an invaluable bank of experiences with others in which to help me cope and strategize with. :)