Living in the city (D.C.) is something else. all my stuff is here. How do I function as an impermanent being within a permanent idea/vision held together by everyone now and from the past? that everything is "technically" here disturbs me. everything is labeled and owned.
walking around the city makes me full...like i just gorged on fatty foods full.
"there is beauty in the detail of the ugly whole." will be a phrase i anticipate that i will turn to a lot while trying to establish myself in this career.
The idea of "having purpose" is separate from "function" and something i'm not yet equipped to write about. i will be using the time spent at the retail job to internalize the relationship between the two...
gotta review good ol semiotics.
when i was moving my stuff into the apartment complex i couldn't help but keep thinking how only 2 weeks ago did i imagine myself living here in my 30s with (a spouse of some sort and) a dog. i placed a small dish on a red table near the door as a place for my keys. i left the apartment this morning convinced that i had keys only to find myself locked out at the end of the day and them on my desk from the night before. fail.
The word "convince" is such a wily little bastard.
I don't think about my grasp or worry over my fear of not grasping the concept of the word "Close" anymore since there are 23 people in the program and only one room in which all of the 3-4 hour classes will be held.
Grad school So far:
I predict holding lots of small talk over tiny plates covered in gourmet catered finger food.
Thesis outlines for rough draft proposals due within the first weeks of spring semester...half of us upon hearing this let our jaws go slack and while i'm pretty sure it didn't register with the rest (my jaw hit the floor).
My peers in the PJNM program are amazingly talented and I am super stoked to see the work they produce.
Going to a school in the city...wow. there are so many things happening at once it makes you almost anxious. reminder- all things are pretty much awesome so choosing one over the other isn't a crime.
Network EARLY. everyone knows everyone so first impressions are- incredibly important.
"all eyes are on us." was said a few times during our program meetings. We represent not just ourselves but all who give us their time to help us succeed. it's amazing and i am humble and ready to prove myself/ earn my keep within this elite community of talented D.C. based photojournalists.
As several older posts here remind me...I truly do appreciate the experiences that undergrad gave me.
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yes, spending hours at a time in the same room with the same 20-30 people will redefine your understanding of "close." upon graduation, i still find myself wondering what would have been different if i had been one of the people for whom friends and classmates were the same.
ReplyDeleteyea. while in the lounge inbetween classes the topic of creating friendships came up...haha
ReplyDeletemost of us openly acknowledged a desire for some level of outside hang out time. i think we all respect one another and i see it as us investing in on another for future opportunities that may or may not arise. idk. we'll see.