Beyond selfishness is the unendurable. i am being incredibly Overly dramatic. but, honestly, i have not felt so much self- pity for myself in a long time...i have not felt such intense levels of self-loathing ever. the images of my grandmother that i was told, and knew, should have backed up are now gone and unrecoverable from the external hard drive that fell earlier this semester. $1500 worth of expectation and hope wasted. i feel like a rube for paying that much money to some one who i have no business being mad at since it was my fault for not backing it up elsewhere before it had fallen.
i can't think. i want things to be analog again. i want i want i want i want i want i want those images of mine back.
i hate the intensity of these feelings...over something that, to anyone who has as much as I do, is ultimately, Nothing.
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as us visual journalists say- first world problems... :/
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